Stuff About Me

I like to organize things to where they fit well and look pleasing, but rarely does my organizational activity serve my tactical day to day.

Relatedly, I buy things that I never end up using.

I avoid making decisions because I am afraid of responsibility for the consequences.

I avoid making decisions because I hate to eliminate other possibilities.

I avoid making decisions because I hate to disappoint.

I love to start things and brainstorm ideas but I hate figuring out logistics and details.

I believe that I will never be well-prepared for any situation no matter the circumstance.

I don't believe that I will ever be able to finish preparing for anything.

I am an un-finisher.

I want to think I am not a perfectionist, but I am. It's why I never make decisions and never finish things.

I am usually paralyzed by overwhelm.

I like to "work" on things, which usually means doing google searches to help me collect a zillion ideas onto a list and never stop making ever more lists.

I always just want to be alone. If I can just have enough alone time, then I can be prepared for my job and life when I have to be around people. But I know it doesn't really work that way. But sometimes I think the right balance exists and it's just really hard to achieve.

I skin-pick compulsively the inside of my right thumb knuckle. Sometimes I can't will myself to do anything else but that.

Once when I was on a bout of organizing, I spent more than 11 hours trying unsuccessfully to untangle a necklace chain.